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15:21 Jun 30 2023
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My mother is still going to fight one more time

14:04 Jun 29 2023
Times Read: 118


Well this whole few months have been hell on myself and my family. As some of you know my dear sweet momma has not been well and will be setting her own day to die. aka Assisted Sucide. The doctors and nurses have been amazing with her and with our family doing all they can to ease our hearts and minds and just plain doing what they can for us and of course for my mother. She has decided to try one more time to combat this whole thing. She has been keeping positive and building up her mind to try one more time. She is on major pain killers, and going for blood transfusions on a regular basis in order to keep blood in her as one of the tumors in her bottom end let go. So they are going to give her radiation to try and stop that and see how things go. She had a major bladder infection last week and now being in hospital they are feeding her antibiotics right into her body. The last time this past week she lost so much blood they had to give her four bags of it back into her body. She is staying in hospital for a bit longer as they want to do a first round of radiation to help with the bleeding.

My husband and I have now rented out our house and moved into my parents house in order to help my mother. You would never ever think that no matter how many times you see it on tv or real life that a child would have to take care of their own parents until you have to do it yourself. Most children have amazing parents and they look to them for strength and be your anchor. As little wee ones we got food made for us and helped to the bathroom and getting bathed, now as adults we have to do that for our parents how the tables get turned. A person doesn't really realize all this because usually parents are luckily very healthy and can take care of themselves right up till the end. When I was faced with this whole thing I couldn't and wouldn't accept it. How could I even think about my own mother dying from this kind of thing and have to look after her and help her go to the washroom and make her meals and clean up her sheets and do all the things she did for me when I was a baby? Some say this must be such a burden to you how could you do this without help? Well I do not see it as a burden like some would, I see it that she took care of me many times when I was sick and needed help, she changed my diapers and fed me when I was a baby, so why shouldn't do that for her? Yes we do have a healthcare aid going to come in but she is a registered nurse as well, only because mom will have to her baths and stuff and her medicine given to her professionally so she can stay at home.

Yes it will be a great help to me and my family but sometimes just having your kids around makes you feel better and want to keep fighting right up to the end. My father is often away from work and having us here makes his mind at ease as well that she is not alone when she comes out of hospital. Being here as well for my dad makes it a bit easier on him too. He still needs to work in order to keep the bills paid and food in the fridge. Sighs this is not easy as a child watching their parent go from a vital and active person that could do things herself and enjoy her life to someone who can barely walk and not being able to bathe herself because she is so weak and always in pain.

I applaud anyone else here who is going through the same thing as I am or did. I want to also thank those who said prayers for me and my family.


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Lilleth
Lilleth
14:36 Jun 29 2023

Sending blessings and prayers.





 

Not a good weekend

15:25 Jun 05 2023
Times Read: 178


This past thursday my family and I got the worst news. My mother's liver has advanced cancer and the doctors do not have anything they can do for her. So she has decided to do Assisted Suicide which it is legal where I am from. My mother has suffered and fought her way up til now with dignity and now she is so tired and she says it is time. Her pain and her suffering is something she does not want to burden us with anymore. She told us it is time for her to take her own life into her own hands and not let this Cancer take anymore of her time and energy that she has left and rather spend it with her family and friends and die on her own terms. She is the bravest woman I have ever known and I am so grateful to have been able to spend my entire life knowing her and this is her decision to make. I will support her even though my heart will be shattered but I know she will be at last at rest and no longer in pain.


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vormel
vormel
15:37 Jun 05 2023

I'm sending her (you and yours too) all my best Energies and, why not, my prayers.





Vampirewitch39
Vampirewitch39
17:21 Jun 05 2023

Praying for you and the family.








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